I haven't updated in months. I don't have much to update. I haven't gained a pound in months, or lost a pound for that matter. I've been slow to do a lot of things. I am still going to Weight Watchers meetings most of the time, but I am not really tracking or following the points program. I am not doing low carb anymore. I am not going to the gym much. I am not walking much.
So what am I doing? I am working a lot. This is one of my triggers. I gain weight, typically, when I work too much. I put on 100 lbs over the few years that I was working 60plus hours a week. I was able to lose weight over the last year in part because my work schedule was more relaxed. But it's creeping back up on me, and I tend to jump in to work and not take very good care of myself.
I have been struggling against depression. I am feeling lonely. I don't get out much. Between the lack of physical activity, working too much, and lack of human connection, I am just feeling down. I have struggled against depression at several different times in my life. My mom and grandma both struggled with depression in big ways. I know I am prone and that I need to watch myself. I was thinking about trying meds again, but have been slow about it, I keep thinking it will resolve on its own. I went to the gym one day last week and felt great, so I kept thinking if I can only manage to get myself there I'll feel better. But it was my first time in months, and I haven't been back.
I have been traveling a lot for work. The trips have been fun and they've been good for professional networking and development. But they throw everything off... I have to catch up at work, I eat out, I get thrown off any kind of eating/sleeping schedule. The travel is hard on my health routines even when I enjoy it.
That's where I've been. I am trying not to beat myself up since I lost 60 lbs this year. That's a big deal. Even though all those pounds were in the first eight months of the year, I've maintained. I am going to try to pull myself back together for the new year. Wish me luck. Hope you out there are doing ok. xo
