Still here

I think I am ready to get back to the gym.  I am finally wrapping up my first year at the university, and summer will allow me a lot more time to get refocused. If I can make good habits during the summer, surely they will last in to the next school year?

I have had frustration with weight loss.  I feel like I have been working really hard with food, and dipped down below 240 finally but then shot back up to 243. Although this is a small fluctuation, I have been in this range for 3 weeks and felt like a huge failure. Then got stuck in a cycle of negative thinking... "this is because of that waffle I ate last week, I make horrible choices" (not true, the waffle was not bad at all!) and "why even bother" and my other self-talk ranged between things in the "eat whatever, it doesn't matter, you'll always be fat" and "liquid diet- fast, spinach smoothies- it's the only way" type extremes. I know this isn't reasonable, and I haven't acted on any of these thoughts... but that's where my head is.

So... on the WW scale I am back to 240, which is still 30 lbs down from where I started. We're going to the gym tonight. I am going to try to pick up a yoga class and maybe some others this summer.

I have been wearing a pedometer, and it's helped a little bit to have a target. I have hit 5000 steps most days this week.